The long awaited entry

Dunno who will read this but heck lah, think I should start writing again since I’ve slightly more time now (slap mouth gently) and should write more often too..
It’s more than 4 months since I last posted an entry… was still thinking what I should blog about…

For the past 4 months, so many things happened, both good and bad. I always believe that things happen for a reason so I welcome all the things that happened in my life with love (though I may grumble and complain initially but hey I am trying!)

Best achievements:

Quitting my job
Some of you may ask why is this an achievement, but people who knows me will agree as they know that I am burnt out but has never taken initiative to quit though I am unhappy and stressed most of the time. I enjoyed my time there but was usually very stressed out so technically I am not too happy or enjoying my time. The “wake-up” call came when I realized that I will lose heart in what I am doing and not do my very best so I decided to move on. I also thought about what I really wanna achieve in life and what are my next steps. I do not see myself in the same place forever and I really do not think I can tahan to be there forever. It is just not me. I am very very happy now as I am now working in an industry that I always wanted to get into, since the 1st day I started work. I hoped that I am able to excel and gain more experience so that I am able to attain my ultimate goal – i.e. to be a lecturer. (more of this next time)


Quitting smoking
I quitted smoking on 3 Sep 2010, so technically I’ve only quitted for about 1.5months. I have always wanted to quit smoking, but I guess that the idea didn’t drive home till I recently have another wake-up call about my health. I know that as much as u have the idea but if u dun do it, it is as good as NOTHING. So when I quit, all my friends are happy for me. Most people thought I was pregnant or I was preparing to be, but I just wanted to clarify, u dun need to have a kid to quit smoking or take care of ur body. U need to love ur own body 1st before u can love anyone else. I am trying to love my body whom I have neglected for so long, here’s a short letter that I’ve written for her:

Dear EQCM’s body,

I know this letter is very abrupt but I think I owe u a HUGE apology. Sorry for not taking care of you all these years. Sorry for drowning u with “gallons” of alcohol and gassing you with toxic fumes all this while. I know I am not a good caretaker though I aim to take care of everyone else BUT you! I worked long hours, stressing you out, stretching you to the max, extending my working hours (trying my luck). I know I am just testing you, testing when would you finally break down and give up on me. Thank you for staying strong and I realized that I shouldn’t take you for granted, thinking you are invincible. I wanna thank you for standing strong all this while and I hope I am not too late to start taking care of you. I know that I subject you to many other bad stuff, but I promise that I will start taking good care of you and not abuse you anymore. Hope you will “recover” slowly (never mind, take your time) and do let me know what else I can do to make you feel better.

Lastly, I just want you to know that I love you.

XOXO
EQCM
Okie, shall end off my post here and will definitely post more often.

Take care peeps!